Random Thoughts™

I was sitting outside the other day, and saw the coolest sunset ever. So, I decided to take a picture of it and share it. But I didn’t share it on Instagram or Facebook or any other site. I saved it for sharing on here. Only because this sunset made me think. So, without further adieu–here is the amazing sunset..

Now, what this made me think of is the fact that I was alive to see it. I never mentioned it here, but I have on YouTube, on vlogs.
Anyway, last August I attempted suicide – and nearly succeeded. I spent two months after that drinking excessively.. then around October, I decided things had to change. I couldn’t keep self destructing like that. It wasn’t getting me anywhere, nor was it helping. So, literally since October of 2015 til now, May 2016, I have not had any liquor at all, and I quit smoking too. I haven’t had a cigarette since October, nor do I want one anymore. I spend my time now vaping, and I enjoy it.

In general, I’m a lot more content than I was before, and still taking things a day at a time. Bad things happen from time to time, I can’t deny. But I’m trying my best not to let things get to me, and keep my head up. It’s not always easy, and sometimes I do stumble. But at the end of the day, I can look up and say I’m happy to be here. And just to think, I technically shouldn’t be here right now.

These things got me thinking that I want to make sure that people who suffer from the same things I do, or even similar know that they’re not alone. And that despite how bad things get, things can get better. And I know some people think it’s stupid to say cliched things like that, but it really is true. Thing is, I’ve seen the light at the end of the darkness. Several times, in fact. So, I know it’s there. That little bit of hope keeps me fighting through the dark times, just to see the light again at the end of it all. And every time I get to the light, it seems a little brighter. I want to help people realize that just because you feel like you’re at the bottom, the only direction you can go is up. And even if it seems like an extremely steep climb, it’s never impossible and never too late.