I’ve been thinking a lot about what plans and goals I want to make for the future. And I’ve pretty much decided what I want to do. It’s a good possibility I may be moving next year. This isn’t exactly set in stone, but it’s in talks. I’m going for a broadcasting school in the area I am in talks to moving to. I already have a place to stay. So, that won’t be an issue. Plus, it’s closer to LA, which is my eventual goal to move to just to work for Philip DeFranco. So, this move will help a lot. Plus, I’d be away from Michigan, which I hate with a purple passion. At first, I loved it, but now, it’s made its way onto my shit list of states to live in.
But, with this potential move, it would bring about more things I can get done. Being in a toxic environment never helps. And getting away from it will help tremendously. As I said, it’s still in talks of when the move will happen. It’ll be sometime next year. Most likely when I have saved the money for the rental truck and gas. Because between Michigan and Arizona, that’s quite a drive. So, there are plans to make between now and then. And, anyone who follows me on my site and social media knows that I hate Michigan.
So, with this potential move, a lot of doors will most likely open for me. Being away from friends and family will probably be tough, but I think it’ll be worth it. Plus, it’s not like it’ll be permanent. I just need away from this toxic environment. It’s getting to the point that I cannot stand it anymore. I need to do away with negativity and surround myself with positivity. Plus, I’ve found schools out there, including broadcasting and MMA schools. So, I’m set on that already.
Looking back at all the problems I’ve had, it was always one person who instigated them. So, getting away from that itself will help tremendously, Which will definitely be a good thing for me. So, I’m definitely looking forward to it. And even though she may read this, and that’s okay, because the truth has to come out sooner or later. I’d rather it be sooner because hiding behind this facade is killing me. Me and my birth mother clash at times, not all the time, but quite a few. And most of the times I’ve hurt myself usually it was instigated by her. She just knows what buttons to push that can push me over the edge. I’m not saying she always does it on purpose, but she can make comments that can cut pretty deep, which is usually what pushes me to to the edge.
Back in 2015, when I last attempted suicide, it was her that pushed me over the edge. I’m lucky as fuck I have friends who care enough to help. Because I only told one person the night of the attempt. She cared enough to contact my brother, who was at work at the time, who then called home to check to see if I was okay. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I somehow I made it through the night and survived. To which I am not wasting my life anymore.
So, this move to Arizona will open up some doors for me, because I feel like it’s something I need to do. Not just want, but need. It’s more than just wanting to go. I think it’ll be good for me. As I always say, the end justifies the means.
So, stay tuned guys, my adventures will continue. And they will only get better from here.